i find that i compare myself to others
more than i would like.
it's a difficult way to live.
this photo reminds me of a ferris wheel.
for some reason i have never been on one,
but i imagine the anticipation to get to the top,
and the breathlessness of plunging back down
and i wonder if life cycles that way.
coming back down is not necessarily a bad thing,
just a way to return to where you've started
and see how far you've gone.
right now i'm trying to come to terms
with what i want, and what i hope to do with this life.
it seems like there are so many possibilities,
choosing one thing feels like settling.
i'm hoping to find the one thing i want,
where i know i'm meant to be doing
what i've waited for all this time.
i think i know what that might be.
(ps- i know the photo shows up spliced in half
but i think it's beautiful that way)